Insecurities…in stream of consciousness…

Do you ever go back and look at your previous work and think wow, I really really suck, why am I doing this, I am the hugest poser in the world and then you wonder if people even like you because they say mean things that are thinly veiled as jokes and then you realize that you are annoying and always have been and that was the whole problem on that playground in England in 1984 when your "friends" decided not to be your friends any more and then you wonder what counts for anything in this world.